Love you down.

honestly don’t even know why I’m awake right now. It’s partly because I’m too angry to sleep and partly due
to the fact that I have developed this burning sensation in my chest. I hate when I get let down like this. Seriously things like this are the reason I never fucking ask for anything ever, because if you can’t fucking do this one simple thing for me then how can I seriously expect you to do anything else for me, ever? I honestly can’t. Like I don’t even know why this has upset me so much I mean, I knew that you all were going to say no so I don’t know why this is all so surprising to me. I guess part of me holds all my friends up to a certain level of ‘friendshippery’ if you will. And so when that idea is put to shame by a situation like this I get hurt or upset. I guess it’s just me being stupid and thinking my friends are better people than they are. Which is a lie, because my friends are good people.
They’re just good people who would rather spend time with other friends or their girlfriends over me.
Which is totally understandable I suppose, seeing as that I go and do stupid things like overreact all the time.

treeswithoutleaves:

have you ever loved someone so much you didn’t know what to do with yourself? they go away from you for mere moments and you feel like you’re suffocating, but when they return, it’s like your very first breath.

Being away from them for longer than a few fleeting moments is like torture at its finest. Eventually it goes from feeling like your suffocating to knowing that you’re barley there. You’re taking the smallest breaths and the lightest steps until you see the one you love again. When you see then again its like stepping out of the stuffiest room into a wide open field where the air is cold and refreshing. Suddenly everything in your body starts up again; as if everything inside you stopped functioning properly waiting for this moment to happen. 

(Source: le-figuier)